Relationship is.. Love is...?!

"Relationships aren't just about being happy. I mean, how often are you happy in your relationship?" - Samantha Jones from Sex & the City 2008.

So, what is relationships all about then? Love? Compromising? Make sure our partner is taken care of, make sure they're happy, make sure we share their burden and worries? Wat else?

I have to admit, and I hate to admit, I'm the ultimate worst girlfren in the world.. Lately, I have been feeling quite bad about it. I dont have a life. My work is my life.. my dogs as well. So wats left of me? I watch tv and read books & magazines.. I dont go shopping, I dont see my friends... what i'm trying to say is that, that left me no conversation, no interesting conversation to talk to my partner. It is pathetic, I know.

So when I'm not happy with him or our relationship, I dont think i have the right to complain anymore. At the beginning, according to him, i was pinpointing, i was picky i was difficult. I tried and i did put in effort. Ironically, what turned out is that, I chose to ignore all those that used to matter to me. Thats what i meant by not thinking too much about it.

S'times i wish i were me long ago..that believed in the girl power theory.. 'sorry is not good enuff.. wats said is said...'... i used to be like that. Feel sorry for whoever that was wt me back then.

I'm just driving myself crazy. What bothers me is that the sweetness, the patience and the respect. If those do not even exist anymore... wat is it that potrait 'relationship'?

Tonite, we went for Madagascar 2 at The Gardens. There was a small incident tat occured. There was this eurasion kid, he was over-excited about the animation, so he was making lotsa noise. In the middle of the movie, some French lady shouted at the parents of the kid and the kid asking him to shut up.. shut the f**k up. The dad kinda fought back. At the end of the movie, French lady actually went up to dad and started 'lecturing' the couple. There goes the fight... French lady has an Indian partner. Coincidently, French lady & partner walked our way to the car park. French lady was making lotsa bad comments about the couple.. Indian partner was explaining to her in a very calm and patient way. Of course, to us, the French lady is crazy and rude. I dun think many men would've been able to stand her.. but he stood by her, tried to talk her outta it.. didnt know whether it worked in the end..

What got me into thinking is that... 1) so, even the partner is rude, the partner will be the patient one to calm him/her down.. 2) There is alot of love and patience in Indian partner towards French lady.

From Madagascar2,

Melman to Motomoto about Gloria
“that’s not it. Listen motomoto you better treat this lady like a queen. Because you... you my friend, you’ve found yourself the perfect woman. If I was ever so lucky to find the perfect woman, I would give her flowers every day. And not just any flowers ok? Her favorites are orchids. White. And I’d bring her breakfast every day. 6 loaves of wheat toast with butter on the side. No crusts. The way she likes it. I’d be her shoulder to cry on and her best friend. And I’d spend every day trying to think of how to make her laugh. She has the most… most amazing laugh. That’s what I would do, if I were you. But I’m not, so you do it.”

Thats soo sweet of Melman..

Wats with men actually? If u love ur lady, y cant u just show it? Wats wt the ego and being the chauvinist? Sigh..

I'll live and I'll get over it. As usual, apology always work on me.. and sleeping it off.. i'll not remember much about it after couple days.

I managed to pamper myself to facial, mani & pedicure with Jing + toiletries and grocery shopping.. then movies. What a day. I somehow do not enjoy facial as my handicapped back/shoulders/neck start hurting after 15 mins of lying down on the facial table. Somehow it is to make me look prettier..and rejunevate my skin..

I jumped outta bed this morning at 8am.. thinking its monday.. when i was about to shower, then i realised its sunday. there was a tiny bit of dissapointment. I somehow wished that its Monday and i can go to work. Yes, I'm hopeless. The 2nd time i woke up, before brunch, i washed Baileys and Coffee as Bobby's been washed. And i washed Izzie yesterday.

There are no guarantees in life

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,Nor for the future.
All I know is That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.
I love the way You live so intensely
Enjoy every minute of life
With space to swing Your arms around
Laughing loudly
Unlike me Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange?
Unlike you Unlike you
I am not pretending
There is no time,
There is no time,
There is no time,
Time doesn't really exist.
The past, the present,
And the future, Are all side by side, Hand in hand.
You move and change,Yet you go nowhere:
Everything stays the same.
You stare at me, And ask me questions,
Makes me nervous,
This room it keeps a constant tone
While I'm on a roller coaster

This is one of the songs from Grey's Anatomy soundtrack. Yeah, its all about Grey's, and I'm such a Grey's freak. put it that way, TV freak. ultimate freak.

Sometimes i do feel jealous of others for being able to go home early, 9am-5pm job, friends that haven't even worked in their entire life... but it got me into thinking, putting myself in their shoes, would i even enjoy that the kinda life that's soo different from mine right now? Maybe for the first few months, i'll embrace it.. lolz. nah nah nah.. i'm a Gemini. haha, what is it gotta do with this?!

Work's been fulfilling. Finally after few job pitches, few we turned down... etc, got a pitch on Monday! I'm sooo thrilled. still thrilled. Sometimes i can't believe its true. hehe. it means alot to me. like lots. and its all about teamwork too. And i did lotsa research... i'm not from marketing team, i'm not from PR, or event management... i was, (was) a music grad. I do have high expectations of what i'm delivering, and s'times too high and let myself down. To be able to cope with my ego, i studied whatever presentations that i manage to download from google... good and bad...

The moment i know the job is confirmed, i was head over heels. its like my baby... fingers crossed and not to let my superiors down, not to let my team down, not to let myself down.. i have to work harder, even harder!!!

Was at the international rugby tournament a fortnight ago, cute pic to share. :) more pics on my facebook.

There's this Spiderman at the tournament. 'Spiderman, spiderman, where have you been, spiderman...' lolz.

Waiting for Tan to finish his work and go to Klang for the roadshow. sigh. client servicing? i guess soo.

my baby Izzie is growing!! noty, and skin problem, check out her nose, her fur just vanished one morning i woke up. brought her to the vet, brought all the dogs to the vet, check up/ vaccination, costs me a BOMB again!! as usual... but that's what i have chosen to dedicate to them, all my babies.

Happy Go Lucky!

Weekend wasn't too bad, provided the fact that i needed more rest. Sigh.

But i'm glad i managed to make it to Dennis's spectacular performance at One U on Sunday afternoon. Even i was quite worn out after hosting the kinde's graduation ceremony. I wasn't happy with the arrangement and lack of preparation for being the host. I could've handled it better.

Sigh, shopping mall events.. i was quite grumpy with the crowd and the mess. I guess, I have some ethic and professionalism in me lolz and made myself stayed till Dennis finished his performance, which was nearly the end of the event. Was starving and exhausted and had my favourite roast pork laksa at Cravings wt yang.

I'm having the work too much, no-life symptons. I think i have been having it all this while after i join bk the company. Nothing bad, just on weekends, no work, no events weekend, i feel very lost and miserable. Yes, I dont get Monday blues... as i look forward and energetic going to work. I guess its the way i like being surrounded by all the lovely workmates and the aura around everyone.

Lovely Shifu and me

I should look forward to weekend. spend more time at home, with mom n dad n grandma, of cos my 4 lovely doggies. Hvnt been spending enuff time with Bobby and Baileys. Esp poor Bobby that has just finished his chemo. And poor baby Baileys is still a pup that constantly needing attention. Better spend time with her and Bobby.

Bobby and his umbrella

Ugly Baileys

Dumb Dumb Coffee

Alas, we finally got a name for the cutie pup, Izzie. She's soooooooooooo cute! CUTE CUTE CUTE! noty girl. She's been getting all the attention from everyone at home. Cutie pie. So worried that she wouldn't have survived when I first saw her. Poor thing, being left on the street, bitten by ants and had the infection all over her tail and neck. She's still having this ugly tail. And stupid me read a stupid pet-care book when i was young of docking the puppy's tail n made it worse. By the time I realised after google-ing it was already half a day of docking... sorry baby. I'm the stupid mommy. Should've researched it before i did that stupid thing.

She can walk very well now, and she runs heaps fast.

The first time i fed her the a/d can food 2 days ago, she was sooo eager. Stopped bottle feeding her and teaching her to eat/drink from the plate.

Yes, thats another more than 15 years of responsibility for the family. But we're glad and grateful to have her.

Baby Izzie

Work's fine, relationship is.. i guess... fine, if i think so. lolz. if I just dont think too much or too hard about it. The not so 100% of my life.. is i try not to think of Meeko, Max and Moomoo and the lovely Adelaide home that i miss tooooo badly. At times i feel guilty for pushing them outta my mind.. life stuff.. nothing's perfect.

Home sweet home

My Beautiful roses that are dying!

Maxie, Moomoo & Meeko